December 28, 2005

Mental Fortitude

Have you ever tried to mentally prepare yourself for something that you know is going to happen eventually, but when it finally happens, no matter how you tried to psyche yourself for the inevitable, the news is still like a kick in the stomach? And just like that, everything changes.

Yeah.

Happy New Year to me. /sarcasm

Posted by Ithildin at December 28, 2005 4:42 PM | PROCURE FINE OLD WORLD ABSINTHE

Yikes... hope everything is okay.

Posted by: Lori at December 28, 2005 7:30 PM

Don't worry, it was nothing life or death. Just the reality of my life giving me a good kick in the teeth :)

Posted by: Ith at December 28, 2005 7:33 PM

Hey, those teeth are to be protected. Cherished, even. If there's anything your Curmudgeon can do from 3000 miles away, just say the word.

Posted by: Francis W. Porretto at December 29, 2005 2:43 AM

Pregnancy, cancer, death of parent(s), becoming old enough to qualify for senior citizens discounts?

Posted by: Daniel Upton at December 29, 2005 6:46 AM

Yes I've been hit with a couple of these in my time. Remember that which doesn't kill us makes us stronger... Hang in there!

Posted by: Lori at December 29, 2005 7:58 AM

Menopause? Car died? Needing to move and, if far, find new job? Job loss? April getting hitched? House getting canceled?

Not something medical with you or family, I hope!

Posted by: Jay at December 29, 2005 8:09 AM

Thank you all for the good thoughts. I swear it's nothing to do with my health or anyone elses. I don't even know if I can explain it. Sometimes, something happens, that's not just about dealing with the inital news. It's also dealing with the fact that the way you pictured your life, some of your hopes and dreams -- no matter how little chance they had of ever panning out (but it's very true that where there's life, there's hope, or something along those lines) -- are never going to happen. That's just Real Life, and most of the time, it sucks. I just need to accept that, but today, I'm still feeling sorry for myself.

Thanks again for all the good thoughts. I appreciate it.

Posted by: Ith at December 29, 2005 8:53 AM

I still don't like the sound of this.

Zen hugs anyway.

Posted by: The Thomas at December 29, 2005 9:05 AM

Many hugs Ith - Wish I knew of a way to change things for you! And I think I know what you mean...there is at least one issue in my life that I wish had gone differently, that I had tried to make positive effects, but got out of my control and now know in my heart that I can't do anything but wait and see if things will change...and fear that it never will. Its very hard and very discouraging at times. I tell myself I should live in spite of that blow, that it won't be what defines who I am, who I am going to be.

Many prayers, Ith.

Posted by: Sharon Ferguson at December 29, 2005 11:01 AM

Oh Ithy! Things do change! Look at me, look at Jay...don't gibe up hope! Hugs!!

Posted by: Mickey at December 29, 2005 11:28 PM

Ithy - hugs to you, and pats on the head.

Posted by: Princess Jami at January 3, 2006 9:41 AM